Last night,funny but yes I cried.

Honestly? It’s the time. It’s not the right time for us to be in a relationship. As much as I want to,I have to hold back. Not just for her,not just for me,but for us.

yea

Not really anger,it’s more of like tampo. Not to a person really but to the program itself.

Yep i think so. I know she’s still mad at me coz i threw the stupidest question to her :)

First girl i would turn to if i am sad would be my lola,punta lang ako sa kanya i’ll be pampered :)

Hmm let me think, I think that would be some hours before when we were doing some crappy things and we were fooling around :D

I’m writing this blog for various irrational reasons,first is that i thought of typing this while a sat on a toilet,second is that i cannot sleep,third is that i felt very sad and lonely. Do not fear coz’ i’m just letting out some feelings from my heart probably produced by the hormones from my brain. As i was saying,i felt very sad. I added my first-ever-official girlfriend in Facebook again (how silly i am right?) hoping that maybe we could get to date once more. I keep on viewing past messages with the present girl im so addicted with. I feel sad coz i would be celebrating my 2nd year being not in an ever-so-called-official relationship or what you can say,being SINGLE. It feels lonely you know,some would say it’s nicer to be single well hell yea,you could go out with no one to ask permission from,you would not be committed to reply to stupid messages your partner would expect you to reply just because they cannot sleep,you have the freedom to do everything you would like to do without someone being disappointed. On the other hand,it’s very lonely as i said earlier,you would miss someone saying ‘i love you’ , holding hands,hugging tight and even exchanging romantic kisses,most of all you would miss the feeling of being important and special to someone. It sucks to feel alone,it really is. That’s why on a weekend,when i have no intention on going back home,i would rather not stay in my apartment but would go to my friends’ dorm,coz i would feel occupied. I know im not perfect,no one is,i make lies to cover up lies,i screw up,i expect a lot and most of all i love making assumptions which is for a fact a negative idea. I am so optimistic that i come to a point that i would not accept reality. People expect a lot from me and it really makes me pressured. At this moment, i would like to say,im so stupid,i know i have an I.Q above some but when it comes to love “boom” gravity keeps on pulling me down on ground (land really really bad). Why can’t i be happy? I know,i know i should be happy coz i have a lot of people surrounding me that could make me really happy,but now the happiness i am looking for is from someone,someone who would make my heart skip a beat,making me smile or laugh with no rational reasons,would release all my endorphins just to make me high. Damn,i miss being special,that’s all. I should be dozing off to sleep now,got a long day, i mean week to work. I’ll try to focus more on work,maybe it would lessen the loneliness and sadness. To end the record, i love her and im dying to shout it out loud. *i miss you ahbie*

I certainly hope not :)

Beginning of 2011 as far as I could remember, Nope, I’m not dating the same person back at the beginning of 2011.